{"id":8679,"date":"2021-08-08T08:58:30","date_gmt":"2021-08-08T06:58:30","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.viata.org\/?p=8679"},"modified":"2021-08-08T10:25:33","modified_gmt":"2021-08-08T08:25:33","slug":"din-nou-in-flow","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.viata.org\/ro\/2021\/08\/din-nou-in-flow\/","title":{"rendered":"Din nou \u00een flow!!"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

Pur \u0219i simplu m-am trezit din nou la 4 \u0219i ceva diminea\u021ba, odihnit \u0219i cu mintea perfect limpede. Parc\u0103 uitasem cum este: mai multe luni dac\u0103 nu chiar peste un an a trecut de c\u00e2nd nu m-am mai sim\u021bit a\u0219a. Am deschis ochii \u0219i am sim\u021bit iar\u0103\u0219i acea stare \ud83d\ude2f de lini\u0219te interioar\u0103 total\u0103, de echilibru emo\u021bional. I-am \u00eenchis la loc \u0219i am \u00eenceput s\u0103 m\u0103 g\u00e2ndesc: ce am f\u0103cut asear\u0103? ce s-a schimbat? ce e asta? ? Parc\u0103 nu-mi vine s\u0103 cred c\u0103 pot iar\u0103\u0219i. Mai stau a\u0219a vreo c\u00e2teva minute, rememor\u00e2nd ziua anterioar\u0103…<\/p>\n

Practic n-am f\u0103cut nimic special, dac\u0103 a\u0219 sta s\u0103 m\u0103 g\u00e2ndesc doar la ieri: m-am trezit greu, parc\u0103 chiar mai obosit ca \u00een alte zile. Am f\u0103cut medita\u021bia de diminea\u021b\u0103… nu foarte reu\u0219it\u0103 \u00een senul c\u0103 mintea mi-a zburat de foarte multe ori \u00een diverse locuri. Totu\u0219i, cumva, \u00eemi dau seama c\u0103, chiar dac\u0103 nu mi-a ie\u0219it prea bine, nu m-a afectat \u00een niciun fel: de fiecare dat\u0103 c\u00e2nd mi-a zburat g\u00e2ndul am zis \u201dok, hai \u00eenapoi\u201d \ud83d\ude0e\u00a0 \u0219i cam at\u00e2t, f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 m\u0103 deranjeze, f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 m\u0103 streseze. La fel \u0219i cu sesiunea de exerci\u021bii fizice ce a urmat: le-am f\u0103cut c\u00e2t de bine am putut… m\u0103car c\u0103 astea au ie\u0219it??? Apoi am ie\u0219it cu C\u0103t\u0103 la Rio Juice<\/a> pentru un mic dejun delicios \"\"<\/a>\u0219i hr\u0103nitor unde ne-am v\u0103zut cu Gabi, timp \u00een care oboseala mea interioar\u0103 continua grav… nu reu\u0219eam nici m\u0103car s\u0103 m\u0103 concentrez bine la conversa\u021bie \ud83d\ude2f M-am g\u00e2ndit – a\u0219a cum am f\u0103cut-o de multe ori \u00een aceast\u0103 ultim\u0103 perioad\u0103 la o cea\u0219c\u0103 de cafea\u2615, iar C\u0103t\u0103 a prins imediat g\u00e2ndul… sau poate ea s-a g\u00e2ndit \u0219i eu am preluat-o??! \u00cen fine, cert este c\u0103 o \u0219i aud la un moment dat zic\u00e2nd c\u0103tre Gabi: \u201d\u0219tii, aici foarte aproape e cealalt\u0103 cafenea Emozia, putem merge pe jos…\u201d \u0218i am mers, bine\u00een\u021beles? Eu, \u00een continuare zombie? de parc\u0103 nu dormisem de un secol. \u00cen fine, m-am ridicat de pe scaun cu aceea\u0219i senza\u021bie de\u0219i am b\u0103ut aproape 2 expresso duble?, am fost \u0219i-am c\u0103utat un eveniment de \u00eempletit codi\u021be – neinteresant, era pentru copii, ne-am oprit 10 minute la BebeTei \u00een Plaza Romania dup\u0103 care ne-am desp\u0103r\u021bit de Gabi \u0219i am revenit acas\u0103. Abia acum am \u00eenceput s\u0103 m\u0103 simt mai ok \u0219i nu, nu cafeaua? Am preparat \u00eempreun\u0103 un hummus cu salat\u0103 pe care l-am m\u00e2ncat cu poft\u0103 \u0219i apoi am lenevit pe canapea tot restul zile uit\u00e2ndu-ne la un serial nou descoperit pe Netflix… The Blacklist, nimic special, timp \u00een care C\u0103t\u0103 a f\u0103cut \u0219i am m\u00e2ncat ni\u0219te croissant-e – la prima \u00eencercare \u0219i un pic nereu\u0219ite \u00een sensul c\u0103 n-au crescut c\u0103 nici nu a l\u0103sat aluatul s\u0103 zac\u0103 a\u0219a cum cerea re\u021beta?, \u0219i ne-am culcat la miezul nop\u021bii.<\/p>\n

Deci, nimic la prima analiz\u0103 a\u0219a, de suprafa\u021b\u0103.<\/p>\n

M\u0103i, nu se poate!! \ud83d\ude2f \ud83d\ude2f \ud83d\ude2f N-are cum. \u00cencep \u0219i dau \u00eenapoi mai mult \u0219i parc\u0103 mintea mea a trecut iar de la caset\u0103 la CD, de la analog la digital: \u00eemi aduc aminte instantaneu tot ce am f\u0103cut \u00een ultima perioad\u0103 \u0219i \u00eencep s\u0103 studiez situa\u021bia. \u00cen primul r\u00e2nd, am decis de ceva timp s\u0103 m\u0103 deta\u0219ez din nou de lucrurile materiale (alea de care eram din nou prins), s\u0103 simt din nou a\u0219a cum m\u0103 sim\u021beam acum c\u00e2\u021biva ani c\u00e2nd eram zen???. Ei bine, una e decis-ul \u0219i alta e practica: nelini\u0219tea din mintea \u0219i \u00een special din corpul meu au continuat nestingherite, n-au b\u0103gat deloc \u00een seam\u0103 decizia mea, cel pu\u021bin o perioad\u0103. Apoi, u\u0219or u\u0219or am \u00eenceput s\u0103 \u201duit\u201d c\u0103 m\u0103 mai deranjeaz\u0103 cele dou\u0103 subiecte. M\u0103car asta e clar\u0103: cele dou\u0103 subiecte cu care m-am luptat efectiv \u00een mintea mea \u00een ultima perioad\u0103 sunt puse deja la rece. M\u0103 refer aici la proiectele pe care le tot a\u0219tept \u0219i nu mai vin \u0219i la ma\u0219in\u0103. Da, degeaba pare ciudat, dup\u0103 ce am luat bmw-ul \u00een loc s\u0103 m\u0103 bucur de el lini\u0219tit am dezvoltat o nou\u0103 fobie: s\u0103 nu care cumva s\u0103 p\u0103\u021beasc\u0103 ceva ma\u0219ina c\u00e2t nu e sub ochii mei… \u00een special c\u00e2nd e la service. Bine, am avut \u0219i tot felul de motive pentru care a trebuit s\u0103 o duc \u00een service – ma\u0219in\u0103 de c\u00e2teva luni… ni\u0219te experien\u021be!! despre care musai voi scrie – \u00eens\u0103 de aici la a dezvolta o fobie mai trebuia ceva: niscaiva ata\u0219ament ? De proiecte, ce s\u0103 mai povestesc: alt\u0103 bazaconie, alt\u0103 experien\u021b\u0103. Una este s\u0103-\u021bi propui un plan de afaceri, alta este s\u0103-\u021bi pui \u0219i termene care nu \u021bin de tine ci de mul\u021bi al\u021bii \u0219i apoi s\u0103 te mai \u0219i stresezi c\u0103 nu au ie\u0219it.<\/p>\n

Dar, ce s\u0103-i faci, n-ai ce s\u0103-i faci (nu??!???) C\u00e2nd nu e\u0219ti pe faz\u0103 \u0219i la\u0219i g\u00e2ndurile s\u0103 alunece \u00een mintea ta se \u00eent\u00e2mpl\u0103 la fel \u00een ambele direc\u021bii: nimic nu pare c\u0103 se schimb\u0103 p\u00e2n\u0103 c\u00e2nd, brusc, \u00ee\u021bi dai seama c\u0103 ceva s-a schimbat. Corpul urmeaz\u0103 mintea – c\u00e2t timp e\u0219ti con\u0219tient \u0219i focusat, altfel mintea urmeaz\u0103 corpul – atunci c\u00e2nd e\u0219ti pe automat, c\u00e2nd nu te po\u021bi focusa sau nu \u0219tii c\u0103 trebuie s\u0103 o faci sau, pur \u0219i simplu, nu \u0219tii cum s\u0103 o faci.<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n

Pfff!!! De\u0219i o \u0219tiam teoretic tot m-a furat peisajul. Am stat tensionat, speriat, \u00eencordat, p\u00e2n\u0103 c\u00e2nd m-am decuplat, efectiv pe nesim\u021bite, de flow. E o trecere al c\u0103rei efect m-a izbit \u00een fa\u021b\u0103 cu putere. Din atitudinea zen? ce p\u0103rea la ea acas\u0103 re\u00eencepusem iar s\u0103 am \u201dsc\u0103p\u0103ri\u201d \ud83d\ude2f \ud83d\ude2f \ud83d\ude2f \u00cemi ziceam \u00een sinea mea: \u201dva trece, cu siguran\u021b\u0103, am nevoie doar de lini\u0219te interioar\u0103\u201d \u0219i a\u0219a era, \u00eens\u0103… nu \u0219tiam atunci, nu con\u0219tientizam ce m\u0103 saboteaz\u0103. \u0218i am continuat s\u0103 alunec spre o stare de nelini\u0219te interioar\u0103, de fream\u0103t, care a ajuns s\u0103 se transpun\u0103 \u00een perioade lungi \u00een care nu m\u0103 puteam concentra asupra a ceea ce voiam s\u0103 fac, indiferent c\u00e2t de u\u0219oar\u0103 era respectiva sarcin\u0103. Ca s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00een\u021belegi, am avut din nou momente c\u00e2nd nu reu\u0219eam s\u0103 \u00een\u021beleg subtitrarea \u00een englez\u0103 a unui film, ce preten\u021bii s\u0103 mai am de a-l urm\u0103ri f\u0103r\u0103 subtitrare!! Parc\u0103 atunci \u00eenv\u0103\u021bam, din nou, limba englez\u0103… !! Ciudat r\u0103u! Totu\u0219i, fa\u021b\u0103 de mine cel de acum 15 ani care se sim\u021bea la fel urm\u0103rind un film \u00een englez\u0103 \u0219i f\u0103c\u00e2nd eforturi s\u0103 \u00een\u021beleag\u0103 subtitrarea, de aceast\u0103 dat\u0103 a existat o diferen\u021b\u0103: \u0219tiam c\u0103 \u0219tiu \u0219i \u00een\u021belegeam ce mi se \u00eent\u00e2mpl\u0103. Ce nu puteam s\u0103 fac este s\u0103 m\u0103 deta\u0219ez, s\u0103 \u00eemi lini\u0219tesc mintea. S\u0103 \u00eei dau restart \u0219i s\u0103 revin la starea de zen. P\u00e2n\u0103 acum??… (ok, mintea revine treptat la starea de zen… energia cre\u0219te treptat, chiar dac\u0103 azi diminea\u021b\u0103 am avut un salt semnificativ)<\/p>\n

Exist\u0103, bine\u00een\u021beles, \u00een aceast\u0103 poveste, \u0219i un beneficiu evident: am \u00een\u021beles c\u0103, oric\u00e2t de sus mi-e energia, aceasta nu va cre\u0219te \u0219i nici nu va r\u0103m\u00e2ne a\u0219a dac\u0103 nu o \u00eentre\u021bin con\u0219tient sau dac\u0103 las diverse, din via\u021ba mea, s\u0103 m\u0103 afecteze. \u0218i, fiind iar \u0219i jos \u0219i sus, mi-e mult mai simplu s\u0103 scriu despre asta \u0219i… am o imagine mult mai clar\u0103. Mai multe… urmeaz\u0103 \ud83d\ude09<\/p>\n

Cu drag,<\/p>\n

Sebastian<\/p>\n

8 august 2021, Ro\u0219u<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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